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2010-04-09T07:45:00.001-07:00

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afterall, is still me

2010-04-07T06:50:00.000-07:00

i wan to blog today!
hahahha.. random
is been a long long time since i got this feeling
very bad one
hahaha.. my heart ache when i see the response
the last i got this feeling was hmmm... long long ago..
cant rmb. last year august or sep?
haih.. my fault!
everything jus blame on khai jhin okay! nvm one.
ya, nvm.. my fav line.. everything also nvm
why mus i get treated in this way?
or maybe is i don have the reason to be sad!
jus look into the mirror. the reason is there!
actually don nid mirror
everyone had been saying
so ya, cheer up ;)
is okay.. 不要为了一棵树放弃整个森林
my shoulder is super painnnnnnn
erghhh

more to come tis weekend..the details!

2010-04-02T05:49:00.000-07:00

somebody complained i never update my blog
im soooo lazyyy lahhh
ahhahahahha...
okay shall talk bout my a div
forget bout the raffles game
hahahah..
talk bout the good game we played against saints
we lost 2-0
however, all of us played our best
and we left the pitch wit our heads high up
teachers are proud wit us
we did innova proud, we left a div wit no regret:)
i had played my best against vjc, rjc and of cos sajc
i tried my best to stop anyone from scoring
wit a thinking of
no matter what, at all cost prevent anyone to take a shot
and i did it
i pushed i punched i dived i stick checked, all the nonsense
hahahha...
and someone actually came and watched me play
thank you very much, i really appreciated it
because of ur presence i never gave up till the last min
even im very very tired,i get up
and i try best to catch up wit the players who get past me. thank you:)

now a div over, time to conc on my studies!
omg.. eesu
no joke.. have to buck up liao...
star then star
think positively! maybe it will help me!

2010-03-26T22:46:00.000-07:00

life sucks man
a div so far
we started well,won tpjc 2-0, won njc 3-0 lost to vjc 1-0
fuck lah, first two matches like dreaming on the pitch we won
last match got a bit feeling, but then we lost
sigh... shud have done better and win the game to avoid sajc n rjc in quarter
the goal concede is my fault by not pressuring him enuf..
feel damn bad... sigh sigh sigh
nvm, focus on our next game!
monday wit rjc wednesday wit sajc!
we will make the history
is difficult but hopefully all of us will give our best!

hmmm, a lot people had been asking me the same qn again and again
the answer is no, i really really don
i don care if im lying to myself
but i know i cant, cos it will not last :)
我们没有在一起至少还像朋友一样
你远远的关心其实更长

2010-02-28T03:58:00.000-08:00

WOOOOHOOOO
finally a div came! 1st match will be tis friday!
against tp at ccab
then 10th march njc at delta
followed by vjc 22nd march at sengkang pitch!
so do come down and support ij hockey team if u r free!
ahahhahah
can watch me play for free okay! how great!
i love tis team, jus hope we can play our best for a div! i really want to win sth.
tis perhaps will be my last chance representing the school
i only wan to end tis journey on 24th april okay! which is final!
we r bonded as a team
we went through a lot throughout tis period
get punished together
don listen to instruction
pon training together
kp girls team
kp poeple
and a lot a lot!
oh ya, conflict here and there

i must learn how to control my temper
or i wont perform well
i know it myself
i will try my best to control myself!
a div! here comes ij hockey team

2010-02-18T02:49:00.000-08:00

24 years. first time see them quarrel though i din witness
it sounds quite scary
hope it will turn out fine
feels like crying suddenly.

2010-02-12T06:46:00.000-08:00

ahahhahaha..
is been a long time since i last post sth longgg
haih.. ever since my birthday?
hmmmm..
i tot i gonna have a great year ahead..
since sth happened..
hahahah..
HOWEVER, things doesnt turn well!
what i had done wrong is i tink too much and too naive?
i would say.
come on lah! khaijhin!
do u really think she will? obviously no right!
then wtf were u doing then? tink too much lah!
uhm, i swear. i will stop after cny!
okay no! today!
no yesterday!
yes i started already..
wooohooooo.. im great!
nvm.. life goes on.

a div in 3 weeks.
no table tennis only hockey!
quite happy to see there is actually j1 who join hockey
cos they think our team is bonded and looks great
means others will think so too..
not only these people, right right right?
it doesnt matter whether we win or lose
as long as we tried our best. thats what i feel
hope vijay wont screw me during morning meeting.
hahahhahahaha

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE!

2010-01-23T07:35:00.000-08:00

maybe hockey is jus not my sport..
give up and play table tennis again?

2010-01-16T06:33:00.000-08:00

i enjoyed my birthday yesterday!
ahhahaha..
a div! ijc gonna be the champion
mus believe tis, so we can do it!
we can do it as a team! work hard!
im ready to take the challenge!
going 100% for it!

2009-12-29T07:46:00.001-08:00

初恋是什么？我没有真正的体验过、、、、有时候好想拥有、又好像已经错过已经不在乎过程只在乎是什么结果、也许是伤心也许是幸福快乐！但我知道没有经历过酸甜苦辣的人生是无味的生活真正的伤心过真正的失败过才会懂得人生滋味成功的喜悦和快乐！伤心过难过过经过好多我渐渐的明白什么是珍惜珍惜自己所拥有的因为我失去过

现在的社会不适合我那又能怎么办呢？只有珍惜不要错过一旦错过那是多么悲哀但我们往往错过了不知道珍惜眼前的哪怕是一粒小沙子为了一生的梦想一生的爱情我们都付出了太多太多

2009-12-22T23:44:00.000-08:00

im bored..
i shall update my blog..
tis holiday diff from the previous de
i never work.
almost everyday go out=.=
wit diff people all the time:O
i bet u people must be thinking girls..
nah.. mostly guys
not mostly.. all guys-.-
schedule full alr until 2010:D
24th going chii terng place
26th going singapore wit ackhem ackhem
27th -? friends from singapore coming over:D(im looking forward:)
then i also donno alr...

i met my ex that day at pc fair..tadaaa
wan to read what happened right?
awww.. too bad
im not telling
im too lazy to type?
how?
hahah.. bye! off to play soccer
hockey training..
im not going till school reopen:)

2009-12-08T05:24:00.000-08:00

aiya, forgot bout the bangkok trip alr.
lazy to update le.. hahah..
last week i went for hypernova camp
lol.. the feeling is good overall
i meant the team bonding part
the sad thing is we lsot to mi girls
sigh.. those fucked u seniors
made us run, pt before match
knn, wan play match against the girls isit?
the next day, in the morning
our team solid la. pon trng as team
made them angry! nice one! hahaha
A DIV! WE MUS WORK HARD TO ACHIEVE OUR DREAM:)
hhaha
hypernova fiesta on saturday
my team came in 3rd
coach was happy wit our performance overal
but im disappointed in myself
i din touch the ball many times and let in a few goals
wasted
sigh... lost to his team
thats the worst part..
nvm
we are lack of experience
hahahha.. excuses. but is a good excuse isnt it?
lol!
tis week full of trng!
comin week too..
JIAYOU JIAYOU!

2009-12-01T03:48:00.000-08:00

JUS CAME BACK FROM THAILAND :D
FUN! SUPER FUN I WILL SAY!
i went back jb on 24th november to pack my stuff
i ponteng 3 days of school..
hahahah.. nice!

25th november

went merlin tower and waited for our bus
i went thailand by bus btw
haha... budget. mobile hotel
lol.. slept on the bus for the night and arrived at hatyai at 6 am

26th november

we had our breakfast at hatyai
food at thailand rocks! hahaha.. cheap and is super nice!
dhyrrwent to a beach n temple
kinda boring, but tuttut is fun! hahaha
head to bangkok on the same day by bus too
another night on the bus><

hahahah.. nvm. xian ku hou tian:D
the bus we board on is a second class bus
so squeezy. sigh
we arrived bangkok at 6am
stayed in white orchid hotel located at the china town
hahaha.. what a perfect location
under the hotel is market
and guess what
most of the stalls sell food
lol! so nice! eat n eat n eat
hungry then eat
we shopped at china town and explored the whole town that day
tirind... but it was fun! haha
saw a lot interesting people interesting place at bangkok

we met a local tour guide that day. mr andy lim
he is a nice guy, and we had a great time wit him
he brought us to many places
ratchaburi-floating market, elephant ride, gem factory visit, and also the a gua show><

lazy to type alr. off to pack!
hockey camp tml:(

2009-11-21T21:00:00.000-08:00

jus came back from 3days 2nights camp
fun!
first day during land expedition i had headache
i tink some of u feel that i fake it cos im too lazy to walk and bla
but is really headache la..
thats is why i cant enthu.
hmmm, our instructor ah huat
hahhaha.. first day see someone who got the same past as me
EXACTLY THE SAME, OKAY 95%
in the bus we talked, i cant jus describe out his life easily
how amazing
because
everything is jus so khaijhin..
lol! but no, im not him
at least i wont get 8 exS before 23
hahhaha..
it takes time to understand a person
i saw the 4 leaders he wrote for mr tan in my class.
honestly speaking, i disagree wit him for some of his choices:)
but ya, not saying im a good leader
im not a leader
i know myself well enough
i love to listen to others opinion and choose the right 1 and i will go for it 100%
i wont try i wont risk i wont do sth which i feel is not right
thats jus me, the lazy khaijhin
only do things once
but i will go all out since is the only one time
some people might get irritated byt the way i do things
for example
the blindfold game
im not into it, when people shouting i choose to sleep at one corner
why?
i felt that the game is pointless
is jus about who shout louder tats all
i feel that im not needed somehow.

okay! k mah house!
woohoo.. it was fun to hang out wit u people
look forward for more homestay!
i got a new grip for my hockey stick<3

2009-11-16T05:28:00.000-08:00

im promoted.
but
why cant i feel the joy?
why? j1 camp is coming.
usually i looked forward for camp like hell.
cos camp will always be fun
somemore tis time is wit my class.
our bond is getting stronger n stronger
although there might be conflict here n there
i cried today.
cried.
twicce.
so long never cry already.
ahhaha. haih.. feels better?
no i din. it doesnt help
thanks for chilling me these two weeks during pw intensive
i din know u were in the same boat as me
ergh. tis feeling sucks! it takes time to cure

hockey
jus finished pt today
i guessed is the start of our REAL training
our route to a div jus started
like what joshua tan said.
put everything behind
exam is over, what had passed already passed
looked forward, train hard and get into starting 11 next year!
im ready to take up this challenge!
hopefully the whole team are ready too!
we may not be as skilful as other school' players
but we had the heart, had the passion to win, had the correct mindset
a div 2010
we will win this!

2009-11-10T07:16:00.000-08:00

AND YES!
IM PREPARED TO TAKE UP THE CHALLENGE
FOR MY A DIV NEXT YEAR! I WAN TO PLAY A DIV
PLEASE... i wan i wan i wan!

2009-11-10T07:10:00.000-08:00

OP IS DONE..
MY J1 LIFE GOING TO END! WOOHOOOOO...
hahhaha. now j1 camp. thailand trip wit my dearest family and also hockey stuff coming on!
yay! it wil be fun!
hahahah
im so scared leh.. nvm don talk bout it..
have faith in urself like what sufyan n rat always tell me
am it that inconsiderate and unappreciative?
haih.. maybe i jus cant express myself well?
hahhaha... understand me more and u will know
im that mean and bad la..
really-.- walao... feel so ergh.. nvm..
i dont know! how shud i be this few days.
shud i jus act normally infront my friends?
i wan, but i guessed i cant.
sorry. 16th nov i will know everything.

2009-11-08T00:29:00.000-08:00

WHAT IS HAPPENING TO KHAIJHIN!
i have no idea too.. he keep sleeping and sleeping-.-
no life ah.. too boring already..
really boring.. nth to do:(
op in two days..
but im totally not in the mood to prepare for it..
but i will. is a group project work.
i understand if i screwed up, my group members will not be happy too..
everyone also wished their own group to present the whole project nicely.
is all the work we had done throughout thw whole year.
the pain, the fun, the quarrel, the conflict all come to an end in two days time
it will be a good experience for me.
im not emo!
hahahhaah..
played basketball and soccer for the past 2 days with my dear classmate..
woohooo.. fun! although i din really play seriously..
but jus seeing them crazy here n there also quite fun.. cute.. lol..
cant wait for jc1 camp.
i got a feeling it will be fun!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOVAL!
I KNOW YOU WILL COME AND LOOK AT TIS.
THANKS FOR THE TREAT YESTERDAY!
THANKS FOR MAKING ME FEEL REAL BAD..
nvm, next year my birthday.
even if im not in singapore anymore.
i will still come back and make u feel the same thing! lol.
i will!
:)

2009-11-04T06:24:00.000-08:00

im scared.
really scared.
really really scared:/

2009-11-03T07:37:00.000-08:00

there goes my chances.
all thanks to u

2009-11-02T03:57:00.000-08:00

!woots! is november!
hahhaha.. jus came back from squash wit two faggots, rocky and shawn tan.. lol! quite fun la..
i got owned like some shit liddat.. lol..
op in dont know how many days.. but i noe tml have rehearsal.. ohoh.. die le..
hahahha.. nvm.. prepare later!
yesterday, went back acsi wit indons again-.-
i always mixed wit indons.. hahah.. hmm.. oh well, malaysian scholars are minority already..
what to do? haha.. celebrate their third year here, it was my fifth.. time flies!
hahaha.. rmb last time, when i came here, still nid mummy daddy to help me unpack stuff clean the room.
now, my parent jus throw me here.. hahah.. let me rot.. quite nice actually..
mmhmm... holiday in a month time..
would be a good one or a bad one? i dont know-.- really dont know>< im very very scared..
haih.. nvm..
woohoo... life without jie ying had been? i dont know><
cant deny that i still miss her sometimes.
when im not doing anything. example
on train on bus walking to somewhere alone bathing hmm what else? like now? nth to do then i will start 胡思乱想:( sigh.. i wan to forget her.. i had been telling myself to do that again and again.. but how? isit even possible?
so people! try to make me so something okay. i dont wan to be emo also! hhahahahahhahahhaha!

歌名：天才与白痴 (国)
演唱：古巨基
专辑：最终幻想
作曲：张佳添/郑汝森@宇宙大爆炸
填词：林夕

你说今天的约会不能来了
口气就像在骗两岁的小孩
你讨厌的是明知道你
假惺惺的卖弄谎言
一样比起坦白还可爱
今天是我的生日
你都会舍得走开
我又再提升一级
相信你真走不开
你这劈腿高手
真的让我目定口呆
我是白痴你是恋爱的天才
我应该　受伤害
所以活该在等待
等你有一天明白
我会服从你安排
你会发现在我情敌当中
我的存在
我是白痴也是被骗的天才
你肯卖　我肯买
对我呼之则来挥之则去
演得精彩　显得很乖
不肯流露感慨　oh.....
一直忍耐搞不懂谁是真天才

是因为你的聪明
所以没人知道你的情人
长得帅不帅
而每一个人为你魅力
来得很快受了伤害去得也快
搞得不愉快
我故意置身意外
甚麽都不去责怪
无知让自己可以
保持自由和自在
还是睁一只眼闭一只眼
熬到现在
我是白痴你是恋爱的天才
我应该　受伤害
所以活该在等待
等你有一天明白
我会服从你安排
你会发现在我情敌当中
我的存在
我是白痴也是被骗的天才
你肯卖　我肯买
对我呼之则来挥之则去
演得精彩　显得很乖
不肯流露感慨　oh.....
一直忍耐搞不懂谁是真天才

我是白痴你是恋爱的天才
我应该　受伤害
所以活该在等待
等你有一天明白
我会服从你安排
你会发现在我情敌当中
我的存在
我是白痴也是被骗的天才
你肯卖　我肯买
对我呼之则来挥之则去
演得精彩　显得很乖
不肯流露感慨　oh.....
一直忍耐搞不懂谁是真天才

2009-10-27T08:27:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. life at school is full wit pw..
boring..
if i said i still cant get it over wit my ex, will anyone whack me?
hahahha.. nah la..
she got new bf alr.. i shall forget bout her and really start to get a new life man
hahah.. tis time i meant it-.-
how many i said it alr? lost count:X
sigh.. will i get promoted?
still unknown:/
hope for the best, pray for the worst.
my parent are damn worried i bet=.=
i dont dare to go back:(

2009-10-25T23:08:00.000-07:00

2009-10-24T06:53:00.000-07:00

im so tired today!
hahha.. have lots of fun today at ccab
woke up at 8! to do pw-.- a bit sian.
damn tired... from newton go woodland library then go back newton for ccab
boliao-.-
vs sa.. hmm
they 10v 11
lol.. the sun is so fucking hot la.. i almost melt
i got sun burn now-.-
the score is not 0-5 or 0-10 okay!
is 1-3
not bad right? come.. everyone clap! i feel that is a great achievement
consider some of us is first time play on big pitch..
and mind u, we leading 1-0 until last 15 min?
haha.. train hard for next year a div man!
retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?retain? not retain?

2009-10-22T06:08:00.000-07:00

i got back all my results alr
can promote anot huh=.=
damn scared...
sigh sigh sigh...
scholarship don nid say lah..
im not so into it.. as long as i promote..
im satisfied:)
i love my class! dont wanna join another class man..
sigh.. hope for the best, prepare for the worst
thats all i can say now

2009-10-18T22:48:00.000-07:00

i dont understand myself sometimes
why i still care bout u so much when we are already over-.-
haih. cos of tis, some people start to hate me.
i noe. i can feel. i will try to get back to normal.
soon. i promised. really soon.
oh no.. i guess tis coming week i will get back some of my papers:/
scary :/
going back singapore soon!

2009-10-13T20:19:00.000-07:00

PWing now..
so boring... i feel like sleeping huh. hhahahah.
tired... school without lesson..
fun but, i feel the stress..
dont dare to face the teacher. lol
sigh. pw op clinic again in 2o mins. sucks

i forgot to bring my phone to school today. i left it in dining hall!
lucky rocky in hostel. help me take! thank you so much. hahahah..
but then life in school without handphone. sian! FML

2009-10-10T08:50:00.000-07:00

TWO MORE PAPERS! I KNOW I CAN DO IT.. HAHA..
CAN DO BUT CANT DO WELL LAH..
LOL.. WISH ME GOOD LUCK PPL..
HAHAHAH... IM SO HIGH NOW..
I DOUBT IF I CAN SLEEP TONIGHT..
PLUS COFFEE AGAIN..
STUPID CHEM N PHYSIC..
I GONNA KILL U SOON!
U WATCH OUT!

MATHS: EASY BUT I SCREWED UP=.=
GP: EXPECTED. EASY NOT EASY NO DIFF-.-
ECON: SOMEHOW IM QUITE CONFIDENT EH;)
GOOD NIGHT! MUG

2009-10-01T04:21:00.000-07:00

i shoudnt have even tried-.-
sigh.. wo hou hui le.

2009-09-30T06:48:00.001-07:00

tis few weeks. hmmm.. ok lah..
at least im happy wit y current lifestyle:D
but then.. hmmm sht had been troubling me again and again..
sigh.. i made a wrong decision.. really..
nvm.. promo comin! jia you!

2009-09-22T02:04:00.000-07:00

tis is soooo boring. having gp lesson now.
haih.. school ending in 10 min :DDD
check whether moeny come arl.
freaking broke.
left 2 dollar><

2009-09-21T04:17:00.000-07:00

再爱我好吗 - 何润东

作词:Victer lau 作曲:Victer lau

就在你转身之后心里多了个缺口
一点点一滴滴都在痛
你说要我放开手我想我却只能够
一天天一年年去守候

就算一切随风都飘到了尽头
我也不会放弃陪伴在你左右

再爱我好吗回来好吗
给我一个肯定回答
别再这么的傻让一点风乱了所有牵挂
再爱我好吗留下来吧
好让彼此停止挣扎
只想要找回曾属于我们的步伐

我还在原地停留继续等着你回头
并不像并不愿让你痛
在这漫漫长夜中我想我还是只有
不断地不停地去等候

就算一切随风都飘到了尽头
我也不会放弃陪伴在你左右

再爱我好吗回来好吗
给我一个肯定回答
别再这么的傻让一点风乱了所有牵挂
再爱我好吗留下来吧
好让彼此停止挣扎
只想要找回曾属于我们的步伐

再爱我好吗回来好吗
给我一个肯定回答
别再这么的傻让一点风乱了所有牵挂
再爱我好吗留下来吧
好让彼此停止挣扎
只想要找回曾属于我们的步伐

2009-09-20T00:24:00.000-07:00

tis morning. my dad called me! hahaha..
so cute. lol.
when i picked up, the first thing he said is FEI ZAI.. i was like :O
how u noe im getting fatter-.-
then later realised actually he called wrongly. hahah.. he wanted to call my brother.
i tink he missed me too much.. awww..

yesterday thanksgiving.
erm? the food sucks, only the appetizer was ok for me.
the rest>< zzz...
i was happy at first, after that i get emo.
lots of people mus be thinking why.
hmmm.. i shall tell u all why.
haha.. the song yan shen sang. was the song i listened everyday since i broke up wit my ex gf.
thats why.. hmm..hmm. nvm.. passed very long alr. 20 days :/
fate or what. thanksgiving dinner also wan me to think of her-.- sigh.
is okay lah! going to play bball! bye!

2009-09-18T23:47:00.001-07:00

:DD im not emo lah..
stop saying im emo okay, before i really become emo.. hohoho..
promo is two weeks.. shit! dieeeeeee
im stil sick leh. wtf
but im quite touched..
my mum. omg. first time i feel she cares bout me so much
i said im sick.
she actually wanted to come singapore n visit me, give me medicine
she knows im a lazy bum, wont go see doctor.
jus wan to slack n lazy.haha.. awww..
then i wrote on my fb. i left ten dollar.
my brother saw n tell my mum.
she scared i got no money to eat next week too..
hahaha.. so nice.. lol..
i miss my family!!! next week. im going back.. grandma birthday:D
looking forward! tonight thanksgiving..
hopefully will be fun:D

2009-09-16T04:25:00.000-07:00

Walao eh.. im still sick... :(
stupid leh... m i that weak.. nah.. i m strong.
khaijhin is super strong, rmb? :D
hahahha..

anw. many things had happened since 1st september.
i still cant let it go n i know it very clearly. however, i will let it go one day..
i will n i noe i can ONE DAY. A BIG THANK YOU for whoever that had helped me
i noe sometimes i had been stubborn. never listen to all ur advices and stuff..
sorry sorry.. i regretted for trusting my instinct all the time.
im always wrong.. thats the truth. lol.
i had deleted everything email hp no blablabla EVERYTHING :), threw away every single things i got from her. hopefully that helps.
sigh.
lots to say but dont know where to start leh. lol..
class? mmmhm... getting INTERESTING..
rofl.. quite fun to know so much stuff.. heheh. :0
STUFF ;D
outside class? hmmm.. nothing much.

lol... i cant say im happy wit my life now.
but im satisfied. at least.
i will not let it affect my mood from now onward!
accept the fact. she's no longer mine.

2009-09-14T07:49:00.000-07:00

Walao.. still sick.. very sick>.<
saya tak boleh tahan lagi lah..
canot stand. wan take mc. but no! i wont.
lets see tml will feel any better :D hopefully i will feel better.

2009-09-12T08:25:00.000-07:00

still SICK.. walao!
still go eat carls jus now..
im so gonna die tml!
good luck khaijhin..
wit all ur gp hw, i&r..
and yes. fyi khaijhin is 0912b freaking effing gp rep><
sian...

2009-09-11T04:23:00.000-07:00

:im sick

i neeed medicine i guess?
sorethroat cough blocknose:O

sigh sigh sigh

2009-09-10T08:09:00.000-07:00

today! sigh..
supposed to run in the morning..
end up i overslept..
and last night.. i fell asleep when i was studying..
walao.. afternoon like that, at night also><
im getting sooooo swine..
walaoooo.. mus be someone influencing me, RIGHT?
nvm, tml i will run.. I WILL :D
these few days had been great. i feel so relief somehow.
thanks everyone for actually talk to me and help me these few weeks.
really thank you. im fine alr.
i had slowly changed and i can feel it.
woohooo.. nice nice nice.. khaijhin gonna be back soon.
the fat one.. lol.. hahahha..
yay.. i rather be a happy no trouble khaijhin than how i used to be.
im serious. i regretted for what i had done last time.. DIETING
sigh.. nvm...

yeah. tis khaijhin is returning soon! NICE? yes, i know! :D

2009-09-09T03:19:00.001-07:00

holiday finishing! oh no.. thats fast..
half of our holiday is gone=.= walao...
lucky, dont need to go back school again:D
after holiday, hw:/ gp.. essay, mindmap, the stupid test thing, i&r, wr draft 2.
holy cow.. how to finish when i still need to study.. i need to. but im not very sure whether i will.
lol.. uh... this is the first holiday i actually stayed in singapore.
in 5 years? hahah.. usually i surely go back..
i used to go back every week for the past 4 years. how nice.
sigh.. i miss that period. when i dont need to study that much but still can pass my exam:(
is 620 now..
im sooo hungry.. dinner:D bye:)
happy mugging people

2009-09-07T07:26:00.000-07:00

holiday!
yay..
hahahahah.. but ah.. so many extra lesson
THREE hours of maths.. enough to kill me le..
add on... TWO hours of gp..
im dead.. lol... nvm lah.. playing hockey at 5 tml.. yay..
hahahahah... malaysia.. fun..
miss my family already..
lol.. food.. :D all i noe about malaysia is food la..
everytime i go back.. my mind only have one word.. eat..
sigh.. putting on weight. but ya, who cares...
fat then fat loh. right:D
gp hw.. doing now:)

2009-09-04T21:09:00.000-07:00

ok. tis is so gonna be the last post i blog bout you, okay. last. LAST LASSSTTT
nomore.. i gonna forget bout u after tis.i know i will not, but i will try.
work. is work that important to u?
even more important than what u used to have? i dont know.
maybe like u said, we are not suitable for each other. well. i dont know.
and please. i never talked to anyone regarding u! i never said any things bad bout u.
pls stop before i hate u even more.
u can hate me. i dont mind anymore. maybe that can make forget bout u even faster.
which is good. GOOD..
还是一样划开旧伤
以为自己足够坚强
还是一样逃离现场
不愿面对重复的过往
结局还是一样
ergh. what had i done wrong which made u think that way.
i had done nothing, okay! please made it clear!
i cant be the one u want.
and u cant be the one i want too.
all i want is what i tel u. a simple one.
yes, like u said, i always assume that i m the correct one.
but had u ever tell me what had i done wrong? no, u dint. u jus keep it to urself. dont let me get the chance to change or anything.
ok lah.. whatever. i tried my best. really.
u said all u want is care after u work, not fight.
yes, u r right? but everytime u reached home is 12am? or even 2 am?
froom morning all the way to tis time.
then, did u do anything bout it? did u even tell me what time ur work end?
tons of smses were sent. asking u where r u where r u where r u
but, did u even replied? no, u din until 1-2 am
until u finished eating, doing all ur stuff then u smsed me.
dont u know im still waiting for u all the times.
i doubt u know. even u know, i think u jus dont give a damn.
care? u expect me to show care to u after u treat me like tis? waited for u all the way from 10 pm till 2am? while i keep sms, like an idiot. but u. u never even appreciate what i had done.
pc fair. u told me u are working only at the time when u worked!at the time. when u working! then u tell me, im working for this three days.. what the fuck la
When u start working then u tell me. what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck is tis
im angry. yes im. very very very.
but still i m the one caring bout u. isnt im the one supposed to be angry. u supposed to feel sorry? i dont know leh. really. i really feel that im being treated unfairly from u. at least thats what i think. the rest of the people may think u r right. i dont know. i dont want to know neither.
sunday i bought food for u. even when im angry! i acted as if im not angry not sad and whats ur response?
NOTHING, i got nothing but cold treatment from u.
oh maybe got. acting as if u r the right one, im supposed to do all these. i came all the way from singapore okay!
now u r saying is my fault. yes is mine
whatevr u want to say. please. i dont care anymore.
i already done my best as i said. my fault then my fault loh.
u love to work. love to earn money. thats all u want.
then go ahead. i wont stop u. u r jus not the one i want.
gogogo... i hope u will regret it one day.
im cruel. yes. all i want u is to let u understand me. not to forgive me or what.

ALICE CHEE JIE YING.. i will forget bout u! i will i will i will!
我祝福你

可惜今天无缘一起高歌一趟
没结果再合唱亦没结果
明明以前是我傻求求你姑息我
填词人替我写出的痛楚
期望你开口唱吧合唱歌那可得我
当初你抛开我
你为何麻木地高歌
消失的激情还要热播
谁人仍然是你记住的一个
失去的恋爱难以勉强
开一句声听着情歌总能满足一秒遐想
日后留恋你的声线恐怕下明日更不堪设想
一千句亲爱的恐怕时间到了无缘又遇上
我亦无办法得到见谅
忘掉我声音以后别惆怅
终无法合唱
祈求回头亦太难如何唱多一晚
无饶恕我比悲歌更惨
其实你分手以后这一天已心淡
当初你抛开我我独唱一次“认错”
你为何麻木地高歌
消失的激情还要热播
谁人仍然是你记住的一个
失去的恋爱难以勉强
开一句声听着情歌总能满足一秒遐想
日后留恋你的声线
恐怕未放下明日更不堪设想
一千句亲爱的恐怕时间到了无缘又遇上
我亦无办法得到见谅
忘掉我声音以后别惆怅
始终无法合唱
你要试着放低我
我怕我以后还是唱没结果
以后得一个...
失去的恋爱难以勉强
开一句声听着情歌总能满足一秒遐想
日后留恋你的声线
恐怕未放下明日更不堪设想
一千句亲爱的恐怕时间到了无缘又遇上
我亦无办法得到见谅
忘掉我声音以后别惆怅
始终无法合唱

2009-09-03T06:20:00.001-07:00

i cant stand.. i shall say a bit first..
erghhghghgh.. why why why. u have no feel isit? -.-
or maybe is really my fault? like what i had told u. i had already done my part.
and i feel i never owe u anything.
let everyone tells me. is time to let go. yes time to let go.
1st september 2009. new life. starts.
u are my past. and i wan to forget bout u. more to come :)
IE tml.. omg.. 25 marks somemore.. how how how..
i will do my best:) holiday coming. mug mug mug khaijhin!
u can do it

2009-09-02T07:21:00.000-07:00

i have lots of thing to say! will update during the holiday
stay tune! ihateihateihateihate.
done so much yet gain nth. hateuforlife
and i meant it tis time. i will forget u and carry on wit my own life.
8 months. i counted as none.

2009-08-31T02:21:00.000-07:00

dead

2009-08-29T00:11:00.000-07:00

judgement day in two days.If u see me happy that day, good. the other way round. hmmm.. u noe what happened

$28 dollar for asean dance, $15 for asean t'shirt. wtf!
urh.. i dont have so much money. even i have, is not meant to be wasted this way.
i rather use the 28 dollar go eat buffet. I can use it to eat for TWO times.
why mus it be compulsory? so dumb. make it so highclass for wat. really dont understand them sometimes.
i dont care, im not paying :) if im going, maybe i will consider. the point is im not.
i hav something on that day. Is way more important than this.
next week got so many test:(
thursday ECON ECON ECON! fml. sure fail. not zero i happy already.
friday ionic equilibrium, and guess wad. im studying for it! hahaha..
monday monday monday. please come faster. the decision can change my life. please please.
no matter whats the outcome, all i can say. i will change after that day.
i wont be so sad anymore. i wont be mean to anyone. i wont hurt anyone.
i know i had been harsh to some people this few months. im sorry.
i dont mean it. really. i jus dont hav the common sense to be a nice guy.
i will change i will

2009-08-27T04:17:00.000-07:00

i need help.
i dont know what n how to do.
let go? i cant.
i know i still care bout her.
continue? it wont help but it will prolong my agony:(
HELP HELP HELP

2009-08-25T02:00:00.001-07:00

liverpool lost 1-3 to aston. disappointed.
somehow i think of this.. very weird.

the feeling of me to liverpool is the SAME as my ex to me.
when i know that liverpool lost today, i really wished that i never hear that, or i jus dont want to believe that.
i wished that i never support liverpool. i keep telling myself. should i stop supporting liverpool? gosh, they suck. lost 2 games out of 3. they lost the first. im disappointed. second game, they won. im delighted.duh? thrid game they lost again. very disappointed. the more i climb the more i fall. epl champion? fat hope. but i still support liverpool. is a long journey ahead.
fyi: im a crazy liverpool fan. since p3!

i really wished i never know her. the first time when we broke. i keep thinking'oh wait, maybe there is still chance?' later i realise. OH, there is. a few days later, i realised it was a wrong signal. disappointed AGAIN. WTF. i hate tis okay! AND the last sentence for the previous para is still applicable for this para. i nid some thing that can clear memory! please. please. please!

2009-08-23T02:15:00.000-07:00

i went back home tis weekend..
but it was a bad one. not family but saturday
i really dont know that to do. all i can say now is i tried my best:)
UH! im not emo.. no FML!
really no! two more weeks to holiday. i tink is not going to be a holiday for me.
I WANT TO STUDY, HOPEFULLY i can.. lol..
i cut my hair! so short n i look worse.. grrr. who care :D
PHYSIC SPA TML..
im so not prepared for it.. die die die..

2009-08-20T07:29:00.000-07:00

6 more weeks :/
i jus spoke to mr yohan..
i duno why and how the hell he can see that im not being myself
hmmm.. the talk is quite nice and useful? he seemed to understand my condition..somehow.
i hoped i will change.. like he said, is not too late:)
haih..
pretend i nvr know anything might be the best way for me to be happy again..
or at least be myself.
i never changed! khaijhin is still khaijhin!
ergh! i need to talk to someone. but study come first!
study study study.. 6 more weeks and im free!

2009-08-18T07:53:00.000-07:00

i have g field fa tml but.. i dun feel like studying
no mood:( ergh. why why why
should i jus forgive her? i tried.. but i cant!
i tried to forget everything that has happened for the past weeks. i failed to do so.
it jus pop out.. i dun want it to happen. really.
sigh* i hope u understand what is the situation now.
i cant stand ur attitude. or maybe is the other way round? i dont know.
i had done a lot for u. and i guess u did not appreciate it..

enough of that.. chem spa was okay? i dunno.. im not confident at all =.=
is wednesday tml! goodness, i pon training on monday..
i guessed extra rounds tml? :(
G FIELD G FIELD G FIELD!
hope i can score well.. pls..
shall go study now. bye!
and yes, im not that emo :)

2009-08-15T06:20:00.000-07:00

im SOOOOO dead...
ergh.. chem mock spa. g field ca.. and im not prepared..
tml sunday alr.. so fast..
this is the worst weekend i ever had..
my mood.. no mood.. sorry for people i had affected these few days..
sometimes i jus cant help it.. iis difficult for to act happy when im sad.

.i realised that i dun understand u well. this led me thinking thatu r scary
sorry for whatever i had done(if i had done sth wrong). i dunno how to react. is a blow to me. u promised me but yet u failed to do so. im disappointed, utterly disappointed. all i want is jus merely a fair treatment from u. thats all. sorry

2009-08-14T07:59:00.000-07:00

一天过一天
明天再见这是你每次说的
一直都没有改变
你的无奈
我知道你的心已不再放开
这是最好的决定

你的爱已不在
我为什么还在这发呆

我为什么还爱你
为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因
你狠心把我丢在这里

我为什么还爱你
为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因
你狠心丢我在这里

一天过一天
明天再见
这是你每次说的
一直都没有改变

你的无奈
我知道你的心已不再放开
这是最好的决定

你的爱已不在
我为什么还在这发呆

我为什么还爱你
为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因
你狠心把我丢在这里

我为什么还爱你
为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因
你狠心丢我在这里

WHY WHY WHY! I DUN UNDERSTAND!

2009-08-11T07:21:00.000-07:00

physic mock spa tomolo! ergh..
HEADACHE SORE THROAT..
cant do anything..omfg!

2009-08-09T20:04:00.000-07:00

Long weekend seemed so short to me.
why:( i still got tons of hw:(( ergh.. how how how..
Saturday night race was err? no comment :X
yellow house? was okay la.. not that bad.. beside the fact we only hav ten people.
i cheated a lot.. but oh well, noone knows :D hahaha.. the smile on everyone's face on the pic(:
uhhh... monday.. monday blues.. i woke at 8 am today.. *clap clap clap
well done khaijhin..
why everyone so emo nowadays. omg..
im not emo cos of ackhem "why everyone keep thinking i having problem in relationship " im fine wit that la-.- haiyo
im jus stressed. scared. if i had a choice, i wouldnt want to become who i am now. I WANT TO BE A NORMAL STUDENT. i dun wan to get treated differently :(
so irritating. ergh.. why cant i jus do wad i want. i love hockey. i love to play.
i wan to play a div wit my teammates for innova next year. yes, i want. but im afraid that i cant.
Why i keep having this thought.. WTF! 7 more weeks...
jiayou:) 6 point. tough, but im willing to fight on.

2009-08-07T08:47:00.000-07:00

National day celebration? is super lame-.-
It sucks.. got my hypernova shirt today. take shirt also need ceremony..
oh well, no comment :s AND the shirt is a bit too big eh?
7 more weeks to promo.. oh no.
im really worried. my summer test result-.- cant even promote.
PEOPLE, please stop khaijhin from playing. cos he really needs to study.
7 more weeks. 不是你死,就是我活.
i dun wan to imagine what's gonna happen to me after the promo.
hopefully everything will be fine:)
7 more weeks. hope there are no 绊脚石 preventing me to study.
and look, even hostel internet is helping me. they blocked garena.
if i say im not sad im lying.
but that is the best way to stop me from playing i guess.
OKAY.. 1156pm. internet gonna get cut soon.
GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE! im effing tired.

2009-08-06T08:27:00.000-07:00

hahhaha.. is been a long time since i blogged..
ergh nvm.. i shall start blogging again :DD
my mid year result is equilavent to shit la. maybe worse than that:(
KHAIJHIN! STUDY HUH! DUN PLAY ANYMORE (:
my new cca at ijc HOCKEY. fun make a lot friends.
my class? i love it. haha. very nice cos there are many racists in the class. heh.
mmhm.. there is sth i dun wan to talk bout la.. and i guessed many ppl noe, right?
is complicated.. sometimes i really feel like giving up, im suffering..

我不会后悔

看你伤痕累累就像带刺红色玫瑰
当爱让你枯萎我心已破碎
所有苦让我背就算有罪也让我赔
你永远都最美怎么舍得让你憔悴

我愿意为你赴汤蹈火绝不后退
就算永远只能做你的后备
天涯和海角用一生奉陪
因为有你才变得完美
我愿意为你赴汤蹈火无怨无悔
就是不要看你伤心而流泪
等你一句话死都无所谓
因为你是我的宝贝

所有苦让我背就算有罪也让我赔
你永远都最美怎么舍得让你憔悴

我愿意为你赴汤蹈火绝不后退
就算永远只能做你的后备
天涯和海角用一生奉陪
因为有你才变得完美

我愿意为你赴汤蹈火无怨无悔
就是不要看你伤心而流泪
等你一句话死都无所谓
因为你是我的宝贝

我会一直小心防备永不会累
0默去守候是最大安慰
:2福快乐就是最好回馈
想飞你就去飞振翅高飞

我愿意为你赴汤蹈火绝不后退
就算永远只能做你的后备
天涯和海角用一生奉陪
因为有你才变得完美
我愿意为你赴汤蹈火无怨无悔
就是不要看你伤心而流泪
等你一句话死都无所谓
因为你是我的宝贝

等你一句话死都无所谓
因为你是我的宝贝